So today is the day I become an adult. It's the day I looked forward to when I got in trouble or when my parents told me I couldn't do something that all my friends were doing (Like driving to Knoxville alone LOL). I would say, "Well the day I turn 18 I am going to drive to Knoxville just wait." It's the time frame I made plans to feel confident, have a boyfriend, have the best relationship with Jesus, have my life figured out, and so much more. I thought I had enough time to work all that out and have my life "Picture perfect". As I look at my life today and how I feel about all these things I realized that I am further away than I have ever been for reaching all these goals.
I don't feel like an adult (for sure don't want the responsibility of one), I am not driving to Knoxville (lol), I don't feel confident in anyway, I don't have a boyfriend (or need one right now), I don't have the best relationship with Jesus, Have no idea what my life will be, and I am just "NOT HAPPY".
The reason I'm "not happy" is because here I am seeing that life isn't what I thought it would be. I see that when I was unhappy with my life I never looked at the good in my life and always hoped for a better future. My thought process didn't make sense because I never put any effort to make these things happen. So I realized that I just wasted 18 years of my life waiting for something better that hasn't happened and feeling disappointed.
It all wasn't a waste though. I did learn very valuable things throughout the past year or two. The most important relationship to have is the one with Jesus. Parents know what is best for you the majority of the time. Friends come and go. Family members sometime hurt you, but it is important to forgive them because they are human. Learning to forgive people isn't for them, It is for you. Understand your true value/worth. Don't fall for people who show you the most attention. Looks are not everything. God looks at your heart and the love you show people. Learn from your mistakes and forgive yourself. Lastly, live in the moment and enjoy the life you've been given.
It is not going to be perfect, not even near it. Don't think what "might of been" because you can't go back and change anything. Move on and enjoy the road you are on. Still set Goals, but don't make the goals the only way you can reach happiness. Become your own happiness and trust that whatever God has planned for your life is going to happen if you trust in him and give him all control. Remind yourself this everyday because life does get in the way and then next thing you know 30 years have past and your still not living life.
I do want to thank God for the opportunity he has gave me! From opening doors in my life and loving me when I was so far. For placing people in my life to help me draw closer to him and to give me an outlet that is comfortable to talk about my life to people who might be feeling the same way as me.
Thank you everyone who reads this!
Hallie Lashea Price
Wise words from a young adult. You're ahead of the curve. I'm 45 and I'm still learning every day. I think you have a great start and a great attitude. And you mentioned the most important parts; God, love and forgiveness. You keep believing and thinking like that and you'll do great.
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